As you can see from the hour i'm writing this... How STRESSFUL I've been these days...
I just woken up from a nightmare that some issue occur again from THAT PLUG-IN
I even dreamt of holding a session for our QAs on how to report a bug last night...
I've to admit as being an ex-Engineer, I've too high expectation, standard, or I should say.. FAITH towards Engineers & QAs...
So it impacts me 100 times greater to receive disappointments...
Whatever i eat these days, i just poo it out... even though i just had an egg for a day...
(one good thing i dont' even need to go on diet now.. i bet i'm already on my target weight)
Even though I'm still so tensed... I still want to thank all my friends that are so supportive and encouraging these days...
Thanks to Bonnie & Monkey, who has listened to my shit and bitch along with me...
Thanks to Joseph & Jia-shing, who are also in this industry, have been telling me to be tough n strong..
Thanks to Canvas & Edwards, 2 of the PLs in this DT project, who are so supportive and bitch along with me...
I would be so sorry to them two if this project fails coz of this other team...
Thanks to Tony, my collegue, who has been covering up other projects for me while my blood are sucked by this one...
Thanks to Hilda, Andrew, and Alice (my bosses) who still have faith in me, still encourage me, highlight my performance in the meetings and emails
"Very good job on handling Acer DT case, count on you to keep Acer DT revenue"
"Excellent email, excellent job"
"Thank you for highlighting the issues, good job!"
And of course, my love one...
who I can lean on his shoulder and cried non-stoppingly for an hour...
who keep telling me to take it easy these days...
Take it easy... I will try..
Take a deep deep breath and take it easy...
It's just.. the pressure behind being "highly valued" is soooooooooo heavy